and just for a moment pretend
Oct. 11th, 2009 06:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ethia
My heart sings with love for the boys these days, I swear. I'll probably know The End by heart by the end of the week; it's ridiculous how much I love the episode, despite (or rather: because of) all the angst. I've been plotting post-End fic all day yesterday and the better part of today: it's about one of the many roads that lead to Detroit, and Dean struggling with wanting Cas, and getting what he wants, sort of. You wouldn't believe how happy this fic - and writing it - makes me; I just hope I'll do it justice, because I really, really want to share it.
Also: I'm loving the hell out of season 5 so far and if I find the time I'd really like to post some thoughts on how far the boys have come, especially Dean, who literally had me in tears at the end of Fallen Idols. Oh, Dean.
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Date: 2009-10-12 07:55 pm (UTC)But I love that show to pieces and it's like everything reminds me of it. Sounds like lovesickness but I can't help myself.
It's an awesome season so far and I'm sure it'll even top that.
"The end" was outstanding and I'd love to read your fic!!
Dean. Whenever I see a special scene or pic that is typical for him I automatically think oh, Dean. When I think about how much he went through and how much he struggles for happiness I could cry. I wish so badly that he will be happy one day. He gave so much and oh don't get me started. Reminds me of "All hell breaks loose 2" at the end when Sam turns around and Dean, only one year to live, with blood on his face, grins. That's so Dean for me.
Okay enough for now :) ("Enough!" always reminds me of Cas)
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Date: 2009-10-14 02:44 pm (UTC)I totally feel you on the Dean love. He's such an interesting character, once you look past all that bravado he thinks he needs to put on. My favorite Dean moments are whenever his masks crumbles, and he opens up and lets us get a glimpse of how much he hopes and yearns for some happiness. Like at the end of Fallen Idols, when he apologizes to Sam and then steps back to let Sam take the reins for a while, and that feels like such a big thing for him that I just want to hug the hell out of him for it. Uhm, yeah.
And I so hear you on all that he's had to give up! It makes me so angry to see that he's the one who has to give and give all the time, and he never ever gets something back in return. Well, except for Cas' trust and love, of course. :)
(I'm sorry for the lateness of the answer, BTW, and if I don't make much sense at the moment that's because I'm working nightshifts this week and I'm just a little bit out of sync with the rest of the world.)
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Date: 2009-10-16 10:27 am (UTC)Wow nightshifts sound hard! What do you work? Sending you a Cas with cookies :)
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Date: 2009-10-17 04:54 am (UTC)Oh, nightshifts are the best, I love them. I work in a hospital as a nurse-in-training, and we're required to work at least 10 nightshifts (not all in a row, thank God). The only thing that kind of sucks is that I miss all the daytime fun my friends are having, but on the other hand I get quite a lot of days off, so that works out all right. :)
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Date: 2009-10-21 12:53 am (UTC)Sleep well!
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Date: 2009-10-21 10:07 am (UTC)Also, thanks for the well wishes; my sleeping patterns are all shot to hell, but I'm starting another nightshift tonight, so that's okay.