and just for a moment pretend

[ethia]

My heart sings with love for the boys these days, I swear. I'll probably know The End by heart by the end of the week; it's ridiculous how much I love the episode, despite (or rather: because of) all the angst. I've been plotting post-End fic all day yesterday and the better part of today: it's about one of the many roads that lead to Detroit, and Dean struggling with wanting Cas, and getting what he wants, sort of. You wouldn't believe how happy this fic - and writing it - makes me; I just hope I'll do it justice, because I really, really want to share it.

Also: I'm loving the hell out of season 5 so far and if I find the time I'd really like to post some thoughts on how far the boys have come, especially Dean, who literally had me in tears at the end of Fallen Idols. Oh, Dean.

Comments

[ethia.livejournal.com]

Nah, it's not pathetic at all! And I feel much the same way. Like, the thought of these two boys will lift my mood even on a particularly bad day. ♥

I totally feel you on the Dean love. He's such an interesting character, once you look past all that bravado he thinks he needs to put on. My favorite Dean moments are whenever his masks crumbles, and he opens up and lets us get a glimpse of how much he hopes and yearns for some happiness. Like at the end of Fallen Idols, when he apologizes to Sam and then steps back to let Sam take the reins for a while, and that feels like such a big thing for him that I just want to hug the hell out of him for it. Uhm, yeah.

And I so hear you on all that he's had to give up! It makes me so angry to see that he's the one who has to give and give all the time, and he never ever gets something back in return. Well, except for Cas' trust and love, of course. :)

(I'm sorry for the lateness of the answer, BTW, and if I don't make much sense at the moment that's because I'm working nightshifts this week and I'm just a little bit out of sync with the rest of the world.)

[sundaysonggirl.livejournal.com]

Oh there's so much love for the show and Dean and Sam and Cas ♥

Wow nightshifts sound hard! What do you work? Sending you a Cas with cookies :)

[ethia.livejournal.com]

Cas + cookies = best combination ever!

Oh, nightshifts are the best, I love them. I work in a hospital as a nurse-in-training, and we're required to work at least 10 nightshifts (not all in a row, thank God). The only thing that kind of sucks is that I miss all the daytime fun my friends are having, but on the other hand I get quite a lot of days off, so that works out all right. :)

[sundaysonggirl.livejournal.com]

Oh wow I respect all people who work in a hospital, must be hard. I think I'm one of the few who really loves hospitals. Not a joyful occasion most of the times but I love to be there.
Sleep well!

[ethia.livejournal.com]

Oh, I love hospitals, too. They're great places, always bustling with energy, and a lot of good things happen there - it's not just dreadfully sick people all the time, and sometimes even the smallest progression will make people incredibly happy. Uhm, yeah, I love my job. ;)

Also, thanks for the well wishes; my sleeping patterns are all shot to hell, but I'm starting another nightshift tonight, so that's okay.